A Moment with the Spirit
By: Lyndal Spirit
Copyright Dreaming DaVinci Publishing 2009

As I sit and ponder my life, I recklessly search my inner thoughts for the peace of mind. I once shared when I kept God in my heart, mind and every thought. I reminisce on the reflection of all the times I have done well, and some things I am still working on, but always grateful about where I am at this moment.
Nobody can tell me there is no God; or that there are those he doses not hear, truth is we ignore God’s words and try to justify ourselves by blaming this upon God instead of facing the truth that it is us in the mirror! Nothing more than foolishness we continue to speak out for injustices, while we abolish all that which is right and just.

Spirit
Silenced we sit in front of television watching other’s lives fail pr triumph wishing it was us, but never doing anything to create the dream, empty egg shells we sit and do nothing. I ponder the thinking of myself now and the thinking I had not that far in the past, looking for answers to unasked questions, I find my mind stumbling over thoughts and flashes of my life.

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Past family, friends and lovers, all seamlessly fly threw my mind in a moment, I sit here alone as I try and endure the thought of being who I am and what I should be. Some might say you are who you are meant, I say you are a fool, who never dared to reach for the stars and is happy to have me sit with you in nothing.
Funny, I see fights all the time, truly I could defend myself, if I really had to, but violence just unnerves me and the thoughts over flow my mind of the vision with me out of control, out of line and the end results, nope that’s not for me.

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God made me to be better than I could ever be! Keep that thought in front of me as I travel these cold streets smiling. Yea that thought in front of me as I travel this cold street… Keep smiling, smiling. Maybe someone will smile back at me, oh well if not I know God is Smiling on me, yea that’s all I need to know.

Spirit
I think back and every fight I have ever had, it seems to me I was forced or pushed into it and had no other way to handle it. I know deep down, there was another way; it was me in fact that maybe never sought the opportunity to evade a particular situation, dedicated to my own destruction, seeking a end to a self inflicted suffering.
I have to live with that, I know there was a place, a time to walk away. Yea it was me. Wonder how many people have ever really given a deep and true thought to who they really are and the choices they made?

Lyndal Spirit
Do they really think prayer and no action will better their lives? It was prayer and many nights over, to change my life, if they only knew half the story… Wonder what stories people would tell me?
Humm…wonder who has given it enough thought to grasp what I would be asking. A mirror can be a powerful thing.. When I look back, I deeply look at who I am on many levels, I try to be truthful with myself about who I am now, what I have done, is there anything I should have done differently and how it aligns me with Gods Will.
Its not easy looking in the mirror and telling your self it’s your fault. Its not easy to accept it and change it. My grandmother was such a blessing, self inventory. last night I had a conference with myself, I had to let Spirit know your performance needs improvements, I am going to have to write you up… I think I took it fairly well…I have to try harder, Life is to short to blend in, who am I hear to please?

Lyndal Spirit
Some, might say I think to much and this is not good, What do I really care about what anyone thinks? I mean if God is the only one to judge, then should I not also only care about what God thinks as well? What human has the power to change my life?
This also meant treating people with respect I believe when I read it in the bible. I mean if we were all assholes would this not be a blunt statement that we do not serve as we should? Maybe I just need another moment with Spirit…. Yes another moment in the Spirit, another moment Spirit.